Rev. Scott Taylor’s sermon today reiterated the monthly theme of “Love”, but focused on how lack of self-love has led to a “numbing” of our souls in always expecting the worst in situations.
I gazed quite intently at this month’s altar as I listened to Scott’s words. The more I heard about self-doubt, self-criticism, self-loathing, and self-defeating behaviors, the more I saw the scarcity of branches on the tree. It reminded me of how I have written about my feelings of being disconnected and isolated. Before the decorations were added, I would highly doubt that even Charlie Brown would have chosen this as a Christmas tree! It must have looked bare, scrawny, and neglected before the love was added. So many times I, too, feel like that tree must have looked in its natural, undecorated state. One of my Mayan-sized resolutions for 2012 is to work on that feeling inside myself by letting go of fear of rejection. If I were this tree, I would certainly feel neglected, scrawny, insignificant, and not lovable. Too often, I DO see myself that way (ok… not the scrawny part…), but in learning to let go of my fear of rejection, I can learn to love me.
Even the trees without an abundance of branches still have something to offer. This tree is able to provide a branch for a bird feeder to offer sustenance to others. Like the tree in December, this one also is a gift. In loving myself, I can see what I CAN do for others instead of focusing on my self-imposed limitations. The hearts can symbolize not only the love that the tree has for the birds in providing them with food during the cold times, but the love that the birds have for the tree in providing that food as well as perches to rest themselves upon. No matter how I view myself, I know that I always have the ability to give to others who don’t see the limitations that I do when I look in the mirror.
The flowers at the base of the tree are white and remind us of the snow at this time of year (well, most often at this time of year, anyway… no snow presently in 2012!). The snow is a blanket of beauty spread upon the Earth, but most often it is viewed as a reminder of the cold that surrounds us. But this tree offers its gifts in the midst of the cold… a place to hang the bird feeder and a place for the birds to land and rest. And winter is a resting time. The Earth is at rest after working hard to provide its inhabitants with the food that we enjoy year round. We all need a time to rest after hard work… winter reminds of that. It’s a time to recharge our batteries to get ready for the work ahead.
The heart at the top of the tree is to remind us of love… love for others, as well as love for ourselves. The tree top is placed on the tip-top of the trunk of the tree… the same trunk that I viewed as sparse and unwanted earlier.
Again, I am only sharing what I see in this month’s altar, and if anyone would like to add comments here, I welcome them gladly!